Declive

I said before that last year was great and it was. The thing is now the bad times have come. For starters, I actually found the rite person for me, but it turns out that he s not ready for me yet. All the qualities a person needs to be with me he has ýem, but Its like he hasnt grown enough yet. So, I guess my leasson to learn here is to...mmm...let go things, even when i know they are for me? or learn how to be patient? I hope thats it, cuz this situation is turning to be very unpleasant, not to say painful. "How much love is too much?". Sure I havent done anything Romeo & Juliet like, but I have done everything I could to make it work, and still, it just drove him appart. I recognize my main goal this year was to FEEL but til now all I ve felt is negative. Its like its actually good to be a heartless bitch like I was, seems to work better. Should I keep on with this? Cuz it just turns more dificult to handle everytime, when it should be backwards. As always, I ll let time show me the answers but in the mid time, I just gotta keep this on my forehead: " What does not kill you, makes you stronger" so, I guess as long as my heart is still beating I ll be fine, rite?
Iana
1:20 pm
Sunday, July 31, 2005