Crash

After so long It happened again.

She was in control. Strong, untouchable, unreachable. Herself.

She was finally getting somewhere. Mind clear, thoughts straight she was feeling proud of herself again. It took her some time to get there and she had to leave some things in the way,but she was glad to be in her waters, in the safe, where she has always been. She regretted sometimes leaving behind so much, but she knew it was what it took to get there. She understood.

But that day, that damned day when she forgot again about the logical order of actions, inverting the two simple steps thinking after the act was already done, she made a mistake. She knew exactly what would happen and the consequences of it but again she hopped to be mistaken, and clinging to that hope she did the thing she never should have done.

The hope remained for a couple of minutes, as her mind were figuring out all possible outcomes that might result from it. Then, it happened. The sweetest, most tender sound was the prelude of her sentence. The thing she feared the most, the one she would regret for a very long time was in a form of less than 10 words, all of them so sharp and direct that she felt, as she was reading, how their sharpness went through her eyes, crossing her throath, right to her heart making two deep wounds that started bleeding instantly.

She realized only then, when the bleeding was so abudant she felt she was missing air, how big it was and how much it meant. In that moment, her work, all she had been working for so hard, crashed in front of her eyes, with a great roar that came from the inside and left her plunged in a complete silence different from the one she had until then, Bigger, deeper, emptier.

She is confused now, astonished. She doesn't know what to do.

- You made your choice girl, now pick up the pieces....

Iana

11:21pm

Wednesday

Feb. 14, 2007